Sunday, uncensored way of the heart .

So .. Sunday now .. bright and sunny , I'm having breakfast and watching my favourite programme on TV " mysterious ways"...miracles and mysteries.

I spent the day yesterday with two close dear friends .G. lives in a beautiful house overlooking the Baltic .. you can see the huge ships sailing by as they head for Helsinki and other places .. glorious. A lot of talking sharing and a great deal of laughter thoughout the day , dinner and wine and food that feeds the body and the soul ...like something out of a film ... a very real dream.

Got home around midnight- all these thoughts and reflections now . It occurs to me that .. the angel in the form of R. came to heal me kisses and caresses , much snogging and pampering; souls mingling. The healing, magical power of touch .. of touching and being touched, body , feeling, mind and soul.

The feeling I have inside of me now feels like being in love with the world and it is helping me see the world and people in different ways. My heart has expanded. The walls of my heart and senses have been stretched. I know that I can tap into this healing loving vibe whenever I want and it feels right to share it with others in order to heal and inspire.

Life .....It's all about inspiration. It's all about awareness.It's all about experiencing . It's all about choice !

He's probably not aware of it , but earth angel R. has inspired me . I supsect we inspired each other and I am so grateful for this gift.

I wonder ....do you know what I mean ? The ability to see the gifts of love and inspiration in our daily lives .. to connect with the that source of love , loving , mindful, passionate , creative , sexual, sensual place... the place of WOW that makes your heart sing .. THIS Is the gift. MMmmmmm

Note to myself to explore the world of Tantra..... and find the soul of sex.

Oops .....I realise I am rambling on a bit.. I get carried away ...but this is good ... I love going with the flow .. being in the flow ...drinking it all in .. bathing in this ocean of love and passion.

There are a few beings with who, I have always felt that I can be open and free . It's a DELICIOUS feeling .

To be able to say :

" This is what I sense and feel and this is what I want to express , uncensored, unbridled .....when and where I feel it.

I have been afraid of expressing my strong passionate and intense feelings of love because I fear they will be too much for the receiver

I fear rejection.

I fear they will not be able to take it and they will leave and shrink back afraid.. afraid of being penetrated beyond their strong defensive shells .. the armour .. there to protect and prevent meltdown. Vulnerability .

No .. no more .... I am not going to hold back any more. I shall follow and ACT on my heart .. see where that takes me . The way of the heart .

So my friend, friends, lovers , when you have finished working and need a retreat .. come to "HERBS and SPICE" ..( holistic emmie's retreat for bruised souls" & " silly person's institute for communication and expression " ) no obligations , do demands, no " shoulds " or " musts " come as you are .. be who you are ..... you are welcome !

Today, like every other day,we wake up empty and frightened.Don't open the door to the study and begin reading.Take down a musical instrument.Let the beauty we love be what we do.There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.
sufi mystic - jelaluddin rumi - 13th century

O LOVE, O pure deep love,
be here, be now
Be all; worlds dissolved into your
stainless endless radiance,
Frail living leaves burn with you
brighter than cold stars:
Make me your servant, your
breath, your core.

sufi mystic - jelaluddin rumi - 13th century

There is some kiss we wantwith our whole lives,the touch of Spirit on the body.
Seawater begs the pearlto break its shell.
And the lily, how passionatelyit needs some wild Darling!
At night, I open the windowand ask the moon to comeand press its face into mine.Breathe into me.
Close the language-door,and open the love-window.
The moon won't use the door,only the window.

sufi mystic - jelaluddin rumi - 13th century

THANK YOU RUMI .. blessed be !

xxxxxxx