Thursday, 6 October 2005

Bored - please entertain me !


I'm bored, stuck , just wanting to be entertained.
Sleepy , lacking energy or willpower.
Nothing much happening.
No will to make something happen either.
What advice would I give to me:
HS
" Get a life ! "
or
HS " Stay with the boredom .. do it more . ..this too will pass."
ME
But I am afraid that I am wasting time ?
HS Is it true that you are wasting time ?
ME Yes
HS Can you realy be sure that you are wasting time ?
ME No , I suppose in the greater scheme of things .. no.
HS So don't drop that thought , but who would you be without that thought " I am wasting time "
ME Happier .... at peace.....joyful ....enthusiastic maybe .. more energy ...less apathetic
HS Can you think of a stress free reason for keeping this thought
ME No
HS So ... turn the thought around: I am wasting my time
ME I am not wasting my time .


In fact there is quite a lot going on under the surface . That was the message of " The Moon" card that I drew. How is the " MOON" manifesting in me ?
I am feeling the influence if the MOON the waiting ..things taking time .... still waters run deep .. there are undercurrents .. things happening below the surface.... the abstract , the shadow , ILLUSION . What is real and what is not.. the mysterious. I find myself aware of my negative thoughts .. catching them and turning them around ( hence AFFIRMATIONS work ) Negatively the moon stands for lack of progress because of deep rooted fears and anxieties.I'm examining my core beliefs. the Moon tells of failure of nerve and warns of lies and deceit - and the " lies" I tell myself and believe are plenty and they are sabotaging me.

So , for now , I am staying with this feeling.


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