Innocence

.... and when I switched the T.V. on , I saw fields, meadows and trees. There were people travelling in open horse and carriages. They were talking . One was saying " and he was a bit of lad " and the young boy who was also sitting there said " But how could that be. He is a fully grown man."

Nobody answers him . He was left to work it out for himself. There was something familiar about the theme music ..... and then I realised . This was a film , " The Go-Between" !

The young boy unwittingly becomes the messenger for two lovers. When he realises he is somehow being used , he wants to know the full adult story . he wants to know what " spooning " is . He keeps getting hints , but no clear answers. The adults have their own language and ways and use this skill to trick him and take advantage of his innocence.

Nostalgia. I saw this film in my teens, I think. I was naiive too. I didn't understand too well what it was about. I didn't understand about relationships and why people did what they did. I must have been somewhere else . I too was left to work things out for myself. The story of my life !

I remember the contrast of scenes , when the film switches from a really hot summer's day in England at the turn of the century with temperatures soaring and tipping 30C and then over to a cool, cloudy, rainy, present day with cars and umberellas .

Beautiful countryside, clothes, a magnificent old sprawling house and garden full of flowers. Places to explore. A long hot summer. Still the young boy was so alone in this world. Alone with his feelings , sensitivity , shyness and his unanswered questions. Do I recognise myself ? Maybe .