Long day, letting off steam, fights

Thank you Gracious and Loving Universe.
You find me exhausted and yet grateful for a long day of learning.
I ask for forgiveness today.
I got into a fight with a friend.
We pushed eachother's buttons, I'm afraid.
I let off steam and pent up emotions.
I think we both did.
Bless her with whatever she needs right now to be well happy and peaceful.
I also take this moment to forgive myself.
I don't understand everything at this moment but trust that everything will become clearer soon.
Let healing begin, body, mind , feelings and spirit.
Thank you , I am grateful.


I've been out all day . First supervision and then peer group meeting with J, G and G out at G's house which is right on the Baltic .. Fabulous sunny day .. too . I arrived around 3:30 pm . J got there at 5:30 , came straight from work.

It turned out to be a stormy meeting at the end - J and I got into a nasty fight. We triggered each other , I think. I admit to getting " unconscious" and got into an argument with her and let off steam. Childish stuff. Not sure what it is about , but it has happened before between J and me and it happens when I stick up for myself and when I'm brutally honest. I don't always stop to think. Has consequences.

For my part , I was happy to let off steam , and I feel better now. ( sounds horrible and uncaring , doesn't it ? ) I wasn't very sympathetic towrads J's 'victim' and perceived her as being passive agressive a lot of the time. I know that says a lot about me ,as well,

It may have been something to do with my cystitis .... I've been feeling very uncomfortable all day.

So, our usual lovey dovey meeting turned out to be a tempestuous one.

Fine by me, except that I feel like the abuser now, because I have no regrets, and J will probably spend the night in tears. I phoned G just now , and apologised for using her home as a " battlefield " and thanked her for holding the meeting. She was OK with it and we laughed when I said , " it could have been worse , we didn't throw things at each other , or wreck your home " Blessings , small mercies.

Sleep now ... bed ..... night night everyone xxxx