Insights as Xmas approaches

Writing is a meditation , I think it really helps to untangle thoughts and sort things out.

What comes to me more and more these days is to focus on solutions rather than the problems.I could go on oand on about aches and pains here and there - body - feelings - mind - psyche .The most important thing for health and well- being is to be happy; to feel good - however we choose to do that. We need to remove and deal with stressful negative thoughts. We need to be aware of the " poison " as Don Miguel Ruiz puts it and do something about it. With increasing awareness comes responsibility and here is where " art " and skill come in. It is an art to get this balance right. Awareness- responsibility- choice - happiness.. I'm reading " the Art of Love " now - thanks to IA for the recommendation. It is lovely ancient wisdom. Simple language . DMR echoes what others say. It resonates well with me.

I'm trying to watch my thoughts and deal with poisonous stressful thoughts as they arise with love and compassion. Here is where I am making progress. I'm relatively new to this way, since until fifteen years ago I was out of my body and unconscious most of the time .. a butterfly . Giving birth and everything else that followed helped to ground me. I'm being guided and shown how to integrate heaven and earth - the vertical and the horizontal - spirit into matter. In my dreams powerful symbols appear : two swans ( in my living room ) , and snakes in the woods. I love snakes. I have a special relationship with snakes that brings me JOY . can't explain it - but meaningful and signifcant.

HB is a man . A wise , skillful absent minded professor of a man . A gnome . A Merlin character .He is patient and caring but also tough. He does not validate me much , only when I ask. Maybe I should ask more about my progress. I haven't done anything about seeing EB again but it is on my list. I'm also thinking of seeing a Homeopath that I have been recommended and M , The Finnish Psychosynthesis Shaman Lady who helped me a lot. I am experiencing pains in my legs and feet. I have two lumps on the soles of each foot - benign, but uncomfortable. An investigation is on the way. I am waiting to see a specialist at Karolinska. They tell me it will t ake 3. 4 months . My case atF K. comes up for review soon. I have not heard friom them which is scary as I usually do around this time . I have to see to that too. I feel nauseous when I think of all these things " TO DO " . It is overwhelming , boring and soul destroying for a BE- Ing like me. A real challenge.

Gosh .. I 've gone on and on .

I DO so love being able to live at my own pace. So grateful, Thank you thank you thank you universe !!! So .. focus on feeling good is my job .. and to share myself with the world ..good vibes .Eckhart Tolle calls people like me " frequency holders " - PME pointed that out ..........................