I strongly believe that these disasters are wake- up calls and opportunities to EXPERIENCE oneness ..and how connected we all are. What affects one affects all. When one is healed all are healed . The experience of connectedness with each other and ALL THAT IS is such a valuable and important one . The internet is a tool.

We are all changing. We all need to grow and this need expresses itself in different ways; a new job, losing a job,new habits, a new lifestyle, a new relationship, a new house.

When one changes all change. I get the impression that most of my friends are keeping a low profile. Where is our focus ? Where are our energies going ? I am very aware of my own need to interact and share. I think I am also exploring new forums, new ways. It is a slow process and often a frustrating one. I'm trying to get involved in the real world too.. youth project and a shelter for women, victims of abuse. My son's ex used to do volunteer work there as part of her uni courseand . My son tells me that they are always on the lookout for people and is encouraging me to contact them.

We had dinner last night. It was LOVELY .A. arrived half an hour earlier than planned just as I was going g out to the shops for some last minute shopping. We had fun shopping and selecting cheeses for dessert - he seemed to enjoy helping me and carried the two bags up the steps. I made pasta with a mushroom pesto sauce a mix of wild and domestic mushrooms .... and drizzled with truffle oil .Yummy

A. also gave me positive feedback and encouragement for my web page - said he was impressed that I'd done it on my own ! I've changed the template.

I'm trying to picture M's cat Charlie's face tee heee .... " we are not amused " look . Funny how cats hitch lifts and end up in the most amazing places. Other animals do that too. SETH says that pasrt of our consciousness can split off and manifest itself in animal form and this way allowing us to experience reality from another pesrpective. Interesting thought. I immediately thought of Kinskij, Krispian and Charlie .SETH SPEAKS in really heavy going , but good stuff. I read a page or so before I fall asleep - it's a must.

So.. all in all I'm feeling fine .. very introverted still but beginning to look outwards and starting to take action. My greatest challenge is making friends with my Critic subpersonality / archetype .